Mars
Aries fire into Taurus grounding. Sustainability as stability.
Healing as decay
There is beauty in death and decay. My grandfather passed 2/6/25, the same day as my grandmother 9 years ago and in the same week as my father’s heavenly birthday 2/9/24. I would definitely say that February is hard. Outside of my loss, it’s another month living in a decaying empire, an empire who’s map is just a logo. It’s truly wrenching to think about how much of my taxes are used to destroy people, animals and land.
I embrace honesty and transparency to rebuild trust. I understand that wisdom can come at an emotional cost.
I wish I received more flowers when my family members made their transitions. In the beginning I didn’t want flowers because I didn’t think my heart could take watching them die.
We watch each other die everyday though, I’ve been watching children die since I was a child myself. I don’t remember all their names but I carry their pain. Aiyana. Hind. Omar. Layan. Trayvon. I guess I’m stronger than I realize. Another day of understanding, loving and feeling gratitude for my resiliency but also resentment for why its so strong.
We Must Become Menaces to Our Enemies
There is awakening happening and a rebirthing of love as our beacon. A rebraiding of our destinies together. Birth isn’t always painful but I know this one will be so, of course, you can be afraid, fear doesn’t have to stop you from being able to perceive beauty though. Beauty in chaos. This system is and has always been inhumane. I want us find our humanity again but we must trade convenience for community.
Our society is built around consumption and competition. The two are the shadows that have caused us to confuse them as negative attributes within ourselves. Our lives are finite but the experience of living is undefinable.
Apple Cider Vinegar (incredulity)
White nonsense is so much more flavorful compared to white cuisine. Isn’t it funny that this all started from a cookbook? Now I will never argue against the fact that food is medicine. I will say that Penguin and Apple knew what they were doing. It wasn’t an accident how quickly they went silent. Capitalism isn’t about healing you silly rabbits. Apart of me really thinks she believed what she was peddling but the other side of me doesn’t feel empathetic regardless.
As a hoodoo, I’ve had so much of my own wisdom parroted back at me in distortion I can’t name who the original source could’ve been. Land back isn’t just a chant, its a rallying call to call the land back to it’s natural and loving state. Scientific journals written by the ancestors of colonizers confirming that the displacement of the original people of this land(The USA), was detrimental to the land(forest fires, uranium poisoned bodies and water along with coal mining).
Red Moon in Venus reflections
The visuals for this album make me feel Venusian. I folded paper flowers and painted them pink and blue. I soaked my hands in a warm herbal bath and gave myself a manicure with lavender colored nails. I whispered “I love you”, held myself and swayed.
Love is unsustainable without actions
I’m not everyone’s taste but I am my favorite flavor. You don’t have to lose yourself to be loved. Every cup of tea has its own scent, flavor and time to steep. I don’t believe we are unchanged by relating because, there is always change in relationships, being around others should change us and make us better.
There’s this energy that I am trying to douse. It’s hard to put into words but the quality makes me feel like most people focus on saying the “right words” instead of doing the right thing. There have been too many call ins, not enough people following their own calling. It’s okay to be annoying or boring even, just don’t use it as an excuse to police people’s self expression. Don’t let the insecurities you have make you fear any difference.
Don’t forget their names, Say Her Name Report